Well, since I don't know who to talk to I shall have a verbal diarrhea here.. Lol..
It seems that every year when it comes to end of year things seems to be 'darker' or more 'bleak' than usual.. Especially so for this end of year.. My mood swings like a pendulum, one moment to next it will swings from one end of the spectrum to another end.. But I don't think everything is my fault though.. If you ask me to leave I'll jolly well fuck off to chill somewhere else.. Pardon me for the colorful expression so as to speak..
It's like everything is spinning slowly, but surely, out of control.. Like holding on to the seams that are coming apart from all corners.. Usually, I may dread the coming year a little, last year was worst but this year is totally off! I can't even stand the thought of it.. The thing is people may not understand my thoughts, not that I expect them to totally go my way, but while pointing fingers I do hope they do spend a damn it second to think about it before shooting out their fingers! Nonetheless, this also applies to me..
Though I would say there are still things I can look forward to.. Alumni Band for now..
Sometimes I may not even be sure what am I thinking..
And I am SO going to miss my classmates and friends.. And well, they amazed me with their kind words.. That really touched me..
[Phrase of the day: Friends are those who do not ditch you while you are down, they are those who help you up..]
